Just came back from my Bangkok trip about one month ago with girlfriend. It was an enjoyable and memorable trip for me. I wish it can last longer but well, everything has an end. I can only look forward to my next trip if everything allow so :)

I am in a serious dilemma now & I don’t know if the things I am doing now are right or wrong. I’ve no idea what to do now, & seriously, no idea what “he” wants from me. Things are different, things had changed, it’s like no longer the same anymore. But still, I feel like a damn fool..

Am working part-time at a pub right now, & while looking for an office job. Thks to Huiying that now I’ve found a job & officially starting on Monday. Am so not used to getting up early now :(

I just want to lead a normal life with you, is that possible?

xoxo

Work is good so far. Just that the new arrangement is making me so busy that I don’t even know where to start sometimes. It’s like, I cannot settle @ one place, I need to run up, run in, run out. Like a totally mad woman. Maybe because I am not used to it, but I believe I am able to handle it well… Give me one more week!

It’s like, I have so many things to blog… But I don’t want to blog it out  openly. I can only say, I’ve come to realize that ignorance is bliss, really really bliss. It’s better that somethings are left unknown & unsaid. I am trying to ignore so many things around me now. It’s hard, but I will try… Well, let’s see :)

xoxoxo

For 除夕, stayed @ home for reunion dinner.. Had steamboat again. I guess it’s pretty much the same every year but still, I am lovin’ it, being able to have it with my family members :)

初一 , boyfriend came over to my place to bai nian, then headed over to my Grandma’s & relatives’ place to bai nian. There after, headed over to Sembawang with boyfriend, over to his Grandma’s place… Stayed there for a couple of hours, & then headed over to She Bang. As usual la, the guys drink, drank & drunk. & then, that is how the night ended.

初二, was @ boyfriend’s place. Gambled a lil with his family members… Later @ night, headed over to Zouk with Anita & co. Was deciding if we should go for some drinks after that, but we need to bai nian the next day, so just went home after that.

初三, headed over to Sembawang, boyfriend’s aunt place. Usual visiting, had our dinner & lao yu sheng over there. Gambled too, but lose! Lady luck is not with me this time :( Went off around 1am… That’s all.

It’s like a pretty yearly routine for CNY… But that is the only time when I can get to see my relatives’ apart from Synndy & Connie. But still, I am reminiscing  those younger days when CNY seems much more exciting & fun.

Anyway, boyfriend & I didn’t really had a celebration for Valentine Day this year… As long as I am with him, it makes everyday a Valentine Day for me. Nothing else matters more as long as I am with him & we are there for each another… :)

♥

Pre-CNY shopping with girlfriend & cousin;

Have a prosperous year ahead everyone! May good health & wealth are with you always! :)

xoxoxo

My love
I’ll never find the words, my love
To tell you how I feel, my love
Mere words could not explain
Precious love
You held my life within your hands
Created everything I am
Taught me how to live again

Happy first year & second month :)

xoxo

I feel my life fade away with each step I take, Or I wish It would…

♥

Requested to get discharge 2 days after that, as I felt that oral medication might help but I was sooooooooo wrong. The pain came back again & I had to force myself to sleep to numb the pain. Decided to go for the operation so I went back to SGH on the 28 January 2010. Dr Cindy Pang suggested to have the operation @ 12am, which is 29 January.

Just like the normal procedure, the doctor checked on this & that, & then injected anesthetics for me. & I’ve no idea what is happening after that… Baby was waiting for me throughout the whole operation, it took about 3 and a half hour. Throughout my stay in the hospital, he was there for me, giving in to me & giving in to my needs. Bought magazines to entertain me & food to fill my hunger… Daddy & Mummy, my cousin :) & also, Huiping! If they are not around with me in the hospital, I guess I’m going to die of boredom… There’s practically nothing for me to do & I can’t even rest peacefully.

I’m so glad that the whole thing is over, with the support & encouragement of my family, baby & my friends. As I am never a person who will be brave enough to go through such pain, even though it is just a minor operation, encouragement wishes do play a huge part of everything :)

Before the operation, baby was there to encourage me the whole night… Sharing his stories with me, making me feel less nervous & scared. I appreciate it so much! & messages that came in… Thanks people! :)

Yayyyy!!! Now that the disgusting/ annoying/ irritating cyst is gone & I hope it will be gone forever & not to come back to haunt me again! Shoooooo!

Just hope that I will have a speedy recovery, & then, good food, here I come! :)

P.s: Thanks baby for what you had done for me throughout my stay in the hospital, thanks for giving in to my nonsensical temper & listening to my whining & worrying. Thanks for buying food for me. Thanks for rushing down to visit me whenever you can. Thanks for washing my smelly smelly hair for me, hahaha. Thanks for buying magazines to entertain me. Thanks for waiting for me during my operation. Thanks for accompanying me. Thanks for showering me with lots of love, care & concern. Thanks for everything, love u!

xoxoxo